I don't know about you...but,

Oh dear. How it annoys me when it comes to dancing. I personally can not dance. I know I can't dance. I am frustrated and angry at people who try and get you to dance. I really can't dance and because I know I can't dance, I don't want to dance. I have danced before and I have humiliated myself. It would be so much better if people didn't constantly try and drag you to do things you really don't want to do. I know my mind, it has been made. It just makes me want to punch them in the face or kick them in the shin. The utter anger when they won't let it go and physically try to get you to do what they think is "fun". Quite frankly, dancing is not my idea of fun.

I enjoy watching dancing. But only on specific grounds. The dance must be choreographed and have shape and meaning. I hate watching people on dance floors just moving to the beat, without any form. Just head bopping, arm swaying, leg cropping, body swaying, grinding nonsense. Very uncivilized in my opinion. Choreographed dancing, whether it is hip-hop, jazz or ballet, I enjoy watching it. It has shape, line and a form. There is order and structure. Not chaos.

Another thing which annoys me is how people who don't understand your character and conditions make it seem so simple and just generalise you. Especially my parents about me not being able to swim. I apologize, but I do fear large areas of water. Anything bigger than a pond and I'm already terrified. If it's raining, I shiver. My parents, and a lot of other people, keep telling me, "Oh swimming is easy. We can just put you into a pool where the water is only up to your waist and you will never drown." Oh really? I won't drown? I don't know about you, but you're not in my position and I know you're trying to help me with my fear but chucking me into an area of water isn't helping. If anything, I am more terrified at what your logic is of trying to help me. Imbeciles. People who have fears don't just "get over them". There must be a process. Otherwise, you're going to freak the living daylights out of them and then what would you do? Spend more time trying to calm them back down having experienced the trauma of a dumping method used to treat fear. Well done.

So I end my rant here. I am annoyed at people trying to convince you to do things you quite frankly, just don't want to do. I hope those people who are out there convincing others persistently will stop. Recommendations are fine. Persistent nagging is not. There is a fine line between the two.

Enjoy the upcoming Easter break everyone!

Magic Crystal Brain.

We are all mind readers and psychics. You may not know this but think back to the last time you were going to say or ask someone something. What tends to happen is that you imagine what their answer is going to be and make a prediction and from that prediction, your decide whether the question is worth asking or what you had to say is worth saying.

Interesting isn't it?

But then the mistakes appear.

I am a person who "needs to see the world". I have been stuck for years in my tiny little shell, too reluctant and too shy to come out. I tend to picture the entire conversation before I even approach the person and analyse each response. But when theory turns into practice, I am left to improvise. I guess that I made mistakes and so forth and I'm sure I'm not the only person out there.

I learned my lesson that I should openly communicate to people and speak with them instead of trying to read what they are thinking and regretting later that it never happened. Sometimes the truth hurts, but the truth is better than never knowing.

My Shopping List.

I have decided to make a list of my idols, only the top 10 whom I find most inspiring and who I wish to aspire to become. Hopefully. I may be a bit naive but here goes (in no order of preference):

1) Lu Chen
2) Richard Dawkins
3) Gary Kasparov
4) Warren Buffett
5) Derren Brown
6) Stephen Hawking
7) Andrew Lloyd Webber
8) Randy Pausch
9) Richard Clayderman
10) Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

This is not my official list but from the current list of people I know by name, these people are my idols and the people I greatly admire for what they do and are capable of doing.

Note: The need to write this list developed from a conversation with a friend. Enjoy.